Stop that.
1) Service is lethal, even in peace time - we dealt with killing machines 24/7/365 that weren't particular about who they killed or maimed. Even putting air in truck tires could become an emotionally significant moment.
2) No one promised us that the blank check (for our lives that) we signed when we enlisted wasn't going to be cashed before we DD214'd.
3) Morons perpetrating accidents can kill you just as dead as a 7,62x39.
"
The enemy is anybody who's going to get you killed, no matter which side he is on."
― Captain Yossarian [Joseph Heller, Catch-22].
4) The Cold War wasn't exactly *Cold*
Gary Powers wasn’t the only one. More than 200 airmen were shot down while spying on the Soviet Union.
www.smithsonianmag.com
H-Gram 029, Attachment 3 Samuel J. Cox, Director NHHC April 2019
www.history.navy.mil
en.wikipedia.org
5) You took one step forward with that Oath.
Never forget that.
Your service counts just like the Operators' who got shot at all the time, but you lucked out avoiding those nightmares.